"You see this?"

She asked, indicating the angel charm I had given to her in a pathetic attempt to bring us back together. Perhaps it wasn't just the hope of us together I wanted to signify, but the affirmation of our separation. Failing that, it would also be a permanent reminder, to me at least, of this period, this person, and our life together.

"You are my guardian angel. I will always remember you; you will always be with me. I will never forget you."

Her voice was accompanied by the music that had crept through the open patio door. A melodic synth, a diva longing for her unrequited love, all backed by the hard and heavy 808 induced breakbeat intensified this moment.

What we had been through, all of my fears, my thoughts, my inaction, and my reaction, all came back to me in that instant. I can't be sure if I had said anything, being too involved in the memories. The feelings were forming in my head of how I had loved her, how sorry I was that all of this had happened, feelings long since suppressed had now been brought to the forefront of my mind. I had wanted to revisit these thoughts with her, but now was neither the time nor the place. There would never be another time to revisit these thoughts. All of that had been experienced before. Now was a time for good-byes and condolences.

The patio door shut, muffling the music just enough for me to regain my composure. Looking her straight in the eyes and giving her a look I would hope express to her how much what she said meant to me, I nodded, thanked her, and told her I would never forget her. This is all that would be necessary. An awkward hug had followed, like many awkward moments with her before. The clubs patio door had opened again; hard and fast steps were coming towards us on the wood planks, stopping at us as we finish our moment.

"We've got to go."

Looking up to see her boyfriend, and then down to his hand, which was bleeding profusely.

"Go, I'll give you a call, I'm leaving on Wednesday, maybe we can have lunch or something."

I had wanted to spend some more time with her, alone, in not so much of a public place. A place that didn't define the lifestyle that had led to our disgraceful decision. I knew it wouldn't happen, I had called her, and we never made it for lunch. It was probably for the better.

I haven't any idea where she is now, besides not where I left her. I don't even know why I feel like I should share this with anyone, all I know is that I would never wish upon anyone to have to go through an abortion. All I keep regretting is that I gave her that damn charm, as if she didn't have enough to remember me by.

Okay...long time no blog.

Since the last time I've written anything I've moved in to a bigger place, changed my desire to live in that place, gone on a wonderful vacation to the Oregon Coast, and taken on some freelance consulting projects.

Enough with me, the main reason I'm writing today is to share with you the Seamless City project.

"Seamless City is a continuous visual image of the city made up of sequential photos of a walk through the city shot from a pedestrian point of view. Each image is visually connected to the next as the objects are in the real world."

The city in question would be San Francisco.

This project appears to be using technologies like Photoshop in composing multitudes of hi-res photos San Francisco street scenes in order to get a street level "pedestrian" feel.

My only question is how do you convey the feeling of a structure towering over you? While this appears to be a painstaking effort, my only criticism is that the perspective is less than that of a pedestrian feel and more of a backlot, cardboard cutout feel a la "Blazing Saddles".

Not a "dis" still really a "tight" project.

Oh wow...just randomly checking some server logs and it looks like I'm finally getting picked up on Google and some other search engines I've subscribed myself to.

Well, I've recently migrated from Qwest DSL because they are transitioning to an MSN tie in deal which I think is completely horrible. All I need is a pipeline to the internet, I've got my networking( inter and intra ) set up exacltey like I need to for my enterprise. I do not need the fancy bells and whistles that make it so convenient and usable for the "How do I play games and get my e-mail" crowd.

So I've converted over to a local ISP who've made things really nice for me. I'm entitled to some web space and actually a shell account if I believe correctly( with SSH support I'm hoping ). So I should get some graphics and other design modifications done soon, seeing as I have a place to put all of my files that I'm paying for( and not subjected to ridiculous no deep linking crap ).

Stay tuned( like anythings been interesting so far ).

Hmmm...I took a vacation in the middle of the week, only to come back on Friday and then have the weekend off. For some reason I wanted to have the middle of the week off, but never fully got accomplished what I wished to...but I'm glad I took a vacation anyway. The weather is turning really nice in the area and the flowers and trees are blooming...it's just very energizing.

Celebrity themed F5 this week, but I imagine it has something to do with a couple of celebrities dying recently.

I try not to pay too much attention to people who for one reason or another, a commercial firm has decided that an individual is a profitable investment. There are plenty of good writers, singers, artists, and just plain beautiful people who never get recognized. Or at least, don't prostitute their abilities.

1. If you could eat dinner with and "get to know" one famous person (living or dead), who would you choose?

Moby

2. Has the death of a famous person ever had an effect on you? Who was it and how did you feel?

Princess Di's passing affected somehow. I suppose it had something to do with her charity work for children in 3rd world countries.

3. If you could BE a famous person for 24 hours, who would you choose?

No thanks. I'd feel too obligated to spend "quality" time with anyone genuinley interested in me. No one has that much time, and I'd not be willing to bend my ideals.

4. Do people ever tell you that you look like someone famous? Who?

Henh...I've heard George Clooney a couple a times...usually right after I get a haircut. I definatley don't see it.

5. Have you ever met anyone famous?

Me and a friend chatted with Dickey Barrett from the Mighty Mighty Bosstones and his girlfriend for about 15 minutes after a set in which he finished by stage diving in to a pool. Can't remember the conversation, but the feeling was like talking to your buds about what you were doing for the weekend or what you were going to do, really comfortable.

Hello again, I've managed to hurt myself like I seem to do every Thursday evening and then come in to work all achey. I love my preekeend. If the atmosphere and the people weren't such a good mix and the drinks so stiff at this one club I seem to spend every Thursday in, I'd never have this problem. I'm slowly becoming a lush( or it has already since long happened but now it's getting to me as I get older ).

Which remind me, tomorrow's my 25th birthday! I dunno how I feel about becoming a quarter of a century old. It doesn't matter I guess really, 'cuz I'm having a surprise birthday thingy that's been all planned out for weeks now...well it's somewhat of a surprise...I only know that somethings happening...dinner to be general. But still I'm excited due to the people planning it...here's the F5.


1. What is your favorite time of year?

Summer, most definatley.

2. What is it about your favorite season that, well, makes it your favorite season?

Well it used to be the beach that I lived near in Florida. All the tourists, people in and out in a week, then the next week comes around and you've got new people to hang out with. The really brilliant shade of sea-blue that the ocean turns around that time of year. After moving farther north it's even better. The weather isn't so hot as it was in Florida and the city just comes alive with this awesome Summer energy, and multitudes of events. Everybody comes out and gets active.

3. What is your least favorite time of year? Why?

I guess if I had to pick, it'd be Winter. Only because of the rain...not snow, constant rain...for months at a time, without a break.

4. Do you do anything to celebrate or recognize the changing of seasons?

Well gee shuck's no, I've never thought about it.

5. What's your favorite thing to do outside?

Stare at the clouds go by, walk, breathe, live...oh, and frisbee.

Everyone have a wonderful weekend!!!

Happy birthday to me...happy birthday to me....

It's been a busy week for the archaelogical world recently.

A Mayan mural has been found, it is the oldest one found to date.

An Incan settlement has been found in the Andes of Peru. It too is the oldest one they have found to date.

There is a possibility that The Palace of Helen of Troy ruins have been located.

An Assyrian tomb has been found in Iraq which contains an amount of treasures in it that promises to be more valuable than all that was found in King Tut's tomb. One can only wonder how hard it would be for Western archaelogists to have access to this find.

Archaelogists are using Virtual Reality technology to study the remains of a mummy.

Now why the interest in Archaeology? It is not a serious interest, only someting that I keep an eye on. Close family members are in to it way more than I am. My earliest interest in archaeology has got to be this report I researched( if you can call it that at that age ) was involving Atlantis. So I guess my real interest would have to be in Mystical Archaeology. As evidenced by my interest in the books of Erich von Daniken, the correlations between the Constillation Orion and the Pyramids at Giza, and the Temple of Angkor Wat and the constellation Draco. I also have a real interest in the Mayan calander and why did they only calculate up until 2012?

It's Friday Five time again!

1. What's your favorite animal?

Nothing too exotic here...cats. Been around kitties all my life, and I love'm.

2. What pets have you had in your lifetime?

Cats...seven of them in total. My parents had 2 cats before I was born, they grew old(very old) as I grew up, my mom picked up 3 cats since then. I've had 2 cats of my very own. I also had some pet mice that were for a science project (nothing serious). One of them lasted 2 years before Cleo (my first kitty) got in the cage somehow and gave the poor thing a heartattack. Currently my pet count is one crazy kitty (Bootsy) 2 frogs and a newt.

3. Is there any specific pet that you've wanted but never had? Why?

A Gecko! They're sooo colorful and interesting. Why don't I have one...just haven't been in a position where I would feel safe having such an exotic pet. (shrug)

4. Are you allergic to any animals?

I have been so blessed as to not be allergic to any animals.

5. Do you have any 'pet' pet peeves (your pets or others')?

Female cats in heat...sometimes they can give you too much love. Way too much. Sorry if this seems rude or cruel but I've had to lock my cats in bedrooms or bathrooms when they've been so afflicted. They want to rub on everything you're trying to work with...and they stick their butts in your face.